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I wake up in the middle of the night with the panic in my throat
I watch the same dream where I see great hole in my capable boat

And water hides the world from my view and I get naked and cold
And get to the bottom and bottom is full of words and promises sold

And I hear the voice and I recognize it’s mine but sounds like aloof
I seek for love, seek for trust, seek for friend and I need irrefutable proof


May be I am in a stew when you talk?
May be I`m just a threadbare mock?
May be I`m just crucified on the clock?
May be I`m just a Great Laugthing-stock?


Nobody knows what the book is about. Nobody risks his name
I spend my day playing hide and seek to myself and I adore this game

Do you remember your brother’s fault? Your sister’s tears?
Your father’s heavy fists? Or your mother’s fears?


Looking all around and enjoying yourself. Getting towards my liver
I don’t want to be your animal or your stevedore or any kind of your fever


May be I am in a stew when you talk?
May be I`m just a threadbare mock?
May be I`m just crucified on the clock?
May be I`m just a Great Laugthing-stock?

You call me worst words when you`re annoyed or betrayed by someone
But all the animals are sexy when it`s dark in your soul or if you got your pun

You can use your hand to rule my pose or pay for any other injured brute
You can tame them all for money, but not me even if my words are pretty cute

All I give you – I give it for love. All you can take – you can take it for money only
For all our investments I`m a jester and you`re the Grey Eminence who is lonely


May be I am in a stew when you talk?
May be I`m just a threadbare mock?
May be I`m just crucified on the clock?
May be I`m just a  Laugthing-stock?