If only

If only
        I could sleep
One night, without disappointment,
                guilt, regret,
Without pain,
    or midnight cold sweat
If only...
               Oh,
                if only.

If only words hurt a little less,
And stupid brain stopped playing the recording,
with most willing-to-forget specific wording,
If only, all these hurt a little less...

If only loneliness left me alone,
And I could manage and control my tears,
Be cool, hide thoughts, get rid of fears,
If only, oh...
...............If only I could sleep...

12/02/2014