Hi, darling! How are you? What for do you
hide so much from me. Cannot see you
it’s useless? I’m you, I am inside you.
i am following all the steps and you
can’t change it by yourself, don’t try!
.
*Just silence*
Why do you still trying? Why do you
ask for help? I saw your past narrators.
Oh, they only lead you... to me.
oh, they tried,
you thought they tried. They only used you.
it’s only laugh can be made. they helped me
«Thank you though» , you can convey it. .
*Scream is doing from inside*
Why do you screaming? Why haven’t you
shut up already? Shut your mouth!
i am! Only I am with you!
Nobody think what you are feeling!
You scream, just scream
and Some know what you really feel
but it doesn’t matter
they will not ask about it.
They will pass and do there own… .
* A silent phrase from her mouth : «Please stop»* what? You wanna me stop?
oh, no. i will just continue
They will pass and do there own things.
don’t think they really love or like you!
you are just a puppy near dumpster
so many people pass you and think how poor you are.
yes you are!
nobody, remember, nobody took you
ha-ha. no, they took for a while
but was after? Look around?
they brought you to the worse dumpster
. * "Can you shut up, please?", - she says *
NO! NO! I will not
You must understand they only show up!
It is only me who’s near!
Give me your arm I’ll help
I will save you!
You will be calm, you’ll feel great. .
* «No, you will ki...», - she wasn’t able to finish the scream. She was about to faint. *
You think they will catch you?
Oh my god! What a hell.
Your head is so stressed and fucked up.
You want the silence.
You want stability and support.
haha. some of your narrators
have already left
And these ones, (I know you feel it)
they are starting to pack the stuff
they will leave you in a while, you know that
They don’t need you
.
* « SHUT UUUP»,- she cried out and started moving *
They don’t need you,
he doesn’t need or she doesn’t need
I don’t know which sex
it doesn’t matter
Only I am with you,
humble yourself…. !
* The speech continued. but it is not needed to be written down.
After all this silent words, screams and shy phrases that started to volume up…
She wasn’t able to humble herself and these demon inside her head and body… inside her… all her essence.
Physically she was alone. she took a knife, she didn’t take it, she snatched this murder thing.
She opened window. She felt, she is alive
since there is that voice still talking.
She knifes
one, two, three… the forth time...
she opened up,
her wrists are smashed.
she feel her blood on legs
a windowsill is red, she look down
she is out of force to talk
but. there is a whisper :
«Yeaap.. it is blood. hooray»
she tosses the knife up and jump…
she made this fucking voice to be shut up *
31.10.2016