When troubles come and things go wrong,
then suddenly I realize
that I am not at all so strong,
as in my dreams I fantasize.
I am perplexed, confused and weak,
when troubles corner me like jackals.
My future suddenly looks bleak,
as if the Fate, mocking, cackles.
By these attacks overwhelmed,
it seems to me, I am alone
to face these challenges, condemned
to cry, to grumble, or to moan.
One thing, after another, hits,
as if for them I am a prey.
I’m scared out of my wits
what brings to me another day.
Worn out by the sleepless nights,
which steal my strength, I’m feeling down.
Thoughts negative, like parasites,
my mind in self-pity drown.
And yet, a sole thought consoles
that of this mess God is aware,
that He allows for His goals
for me these troubling things to bear.
He would not let my problems be
more taxing than I can endure.
He knows well my soul’s plea,
but wants my faith to mature.
He wants to see which way I chose,
when life on me its troubles piles,
would I accept or would accuse
Him for my suffering in trials.
Would I resist or take His will
as something infinitely wise?
Would difficulties trust instill
and make my attitudes revise?
Do really I serve my Lord
with all my soul, heart, and mind,
and do I always trust His word
and to the others am I kind?
Oh, Jesus, when I look at You,
nail’d naked to the cross degrading,
accused and mocked in public view,
my troubles suddenly are fading.
For what I’ve got I do deserve -
all life’s hurt and complications.
Forgive me, if I have a nerve
to be aggrieved by tribulations.
Your cross is making me apprize
my situation, and it humbles.
Please give me joy to recognize
Your guiding hand in all my troubles.
When my concerns and worries daunt,
You gently quietly remind
that every blessing that I want
is mine when I leave behind
this earthly body and will be
free from all problems and frustration.
Your sacrifice guarantee
a life beyond imagination.
In all my troubles, even now,
You give me hope, ease my pain,
and even rescue me somehow
and leave me wondering again…
These miracles are just preludes
to what awaits in heaven’s spheres.
My heart is filled with gratitude,
and eyes are filled with joyful tears.
5.10.2020
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance."
James 1:2-3