***

I don't feel connected to anyone I loved,
like all the strings were pulled away
and all that remained is huge holes
but there are no wounds, no blood.
No drama, tears, crying every day,
no chaos and injured souls...
I am inside my fluctuating universe,
no good, no bad,
filling with new material
those holes... it can't be worse
than what I had
what should be called ethereal.
I am here, I am close and I am walking,
I know what I need
and I will come to it.