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"Three crosses are on the mountain of life:
In the middle is my soul on the cross of fire.
On the right is my heart on the cross of thorns.
On the left is my brain on the cross of ice." (1)
why did you give him this life, oh God?..
and why did you take it away so early?..
how can I live with this questions
that remain without answers?..
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I know that you wanted to leave
this world without love
I know that you found peace
In light that covers the universe
I know that you would like to see
my heart becoming strong and wise
as yours, and I"ll do whatever I can
to not disappoint you...
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I am crying in the night
don"t leave me
I cannot afford the fight
believe me
crazy thoughts through my head
don"t leave me
I cannot accept your death
forgive me
(1) Translation from Russian - my Father"s words...