*** Have I been ever questioning my sentence

Have I been ever questioning my sentence?
Have I been ever looking for a run?
I have just always been relying on my senses
In seeming endless searching for the one.

I have been wandering by lone avenidas,
I have been targeting a still unknown aim,
But I have never met any believers
In this ideal I'm not capable to claim.

I have been ruining the possibilities before me,
To obtain something that does not exist,
To find a box that would contain me and would store me...
I just got lost in this impenetrable mist.