Part 1
I think It would be much better,
If I wouldn't mention the pre-story,
And if you want, when you can listen,
To my both strange and ordinary story.
I never care about any girl,
Doesn't matter if she's nice, with straight hair or curl,
Never fell in love, but I thought one day I would,
But when I was alone, I was feeling real good.
Part 2
I met her last year, when july began,
I try to make her love me, do the best I can.
But how unlucky! She's got a boyfriend!
So that surely should be the end.
But I can't believe that it's really so,
I felt this strange feeling called "first love",
And because of that I didn't change my direction,
Cause I wanted to be with a girl-perfection:
"It follows
Day after day,
What can I say?
What can I do,
To be with so pretty girl like you?"
I love her, and all the things,
That she used to do and say,
Maybe I wasn't wise,
But I enjoyed all in her, and especially eyes:
"Your eyes are deepest than an ocean,
but it's not empty, it's full of emotions,
It's full of happiness and fun,
In my life you're like a sun,
Without you I think that my life is so boring,
But when I'm with you, I think it's beautiful thing.
I need to look into your eyes,
I need every day, like a sunrise,
I need as an air and as a sky,
I'm waiting when you call me and just say "hi!"
Your eyes are full of dreams,
Dreams about good life, maybe about the prince,
Without you, all my thoughts,
Is about you, can't you see it through?"
Loving her without an answer,
Day pass by day, month pass by month,
And now I think I'll feel something to her forever,
But my patience said - that's enough! :
"Another day, another night,
Another hour full of sorrow,
It's not, It's not bright,
It makes me feel bad 'bout tomorrow.
Now seconds lasts as minutes,
And minutes lasts as hours,
Maybe someone willn't forgive us,
When death take away smth, we call "our"
I will continue my fight,
But I thought there'll be things which'll last forever,
But god dammit, I wasn't right,
And one day we'll go away.... forever
One day we'll go somewhere,
Very high or deep inside,
Maybe it wouldn't be so,
At the end we'll see, who was right"
When first time I thought 'bout death,
Because when I thought it's the end for me.
I thought about life, about suicide,
I tried to be stronger, I tried to live.
I thought about her a 100 times a day,
I said to her all, what I wanted to say.
Only music saves me, when it's really bad,
But taking my first concert, I was more than sad:
"Standing in spotlight, in the center of stage,
I see many faces, faces of different age,
I'm playing my guitar, I'm singing my songs,
All things goes far, when I do my show.
But I feel emptyness,
Emptyness all around,
Cause I wish you was here,
I wish I could turn things around.
I forget 'bout all problems,
But can't stop thinking 'bout you,
How I wish you was near,
I wish you think 'bout me too.
Cause I feel emptyness,
Emptyness all around,
Cause I wish you was near,
I wish I could turn things around."
I have full pocket of fears,
About that my life couldn't be better,
But I always hide bitter tears,
Reading to myself my old letter:
"Don't cry, please, don't cry,
Your tears is only water,
Don't ask yourself - why?
Why my life couldn't be better?
You know, all the things come to an end,
Please calm down and take my hand,
Please stop thinking about the past,
Asking yourself - why all was so fast?
Don't be so sad, smile to me,
You can't imagine what tomorrow will be,
Only you can make me happy, and you know it's true,
So darling, stop crying, cause I can't live without you."
Part 3
Yeah, I always wonder why,
Why I can't be happy now and here,
Then one day I take a look at the sky,
And say to nowhere:
"Where are you my darling?
I'm so tired of trying,
I'm so tired of searching
Now, and what about you?
You dreaming about your love,
But life says to you - fuck off!
What are you waiting for?
Can't you see, I can be yours!
Why two people can't be together,
This things, of course, won't last forever,
So what are you waiting for? Why are you waiting for someone?
I'm here, I'm with you! So don't be so alone!
You should stop dreaming about the prince,
These thoughts are more stupid then they seems,
Take a look around, and you will see,
I'm here, I'm with you, What else do you need?"
So I whispered it to emptyness,
In my head when was only a mess,
You'd laugh, but sometimes I thought about whores,
But all it come to end, when I saw HER.
Part 4
She went with her friends to my concert,
When I saw her I forgot 'bout sorrow,
I made a slight effort,
But decide to turn it on tommorow:
"Pretty little girl I want to be with you,
And I wonder, if you want it too,
If I compare you with anyone,
No one would be better, you're an ideal one,
I want to be your boyfriend,
And walk with you hand-in-hand,
Cause when I look into your deepest eyes,
Then I feel like I'm in paradise
And then I hold you hand,
This all makes me understand,
That I wasn't wrong,
And we can be together all day long,
I want to be with you every day,
Every my second I'll give you anyway,
All you want I'll try to give to you,
Cause I want to make your dreams come true,
I've never said it to anyone before,
But now I know, that it's for sure,
I'll help in anything you ask me to,
Cause you the only one I want to say - I love you"
Then day goes after day,
While I can't say,
Maybe it was from the past fear,
To tell her, what I feel.
Turning point was both our friend birthday,
When I began to thought to turn the other way,
She said, that she has need in me,
I felt when so good, I thought I'd never be:
"Feel first taste of romance,
Under this cloudy and rainy sky,
It was such a perfect sense,
When you said that you're mine.
We're as a river shores,
But now when you're mine,
I wanna say that I'll be yours,
Till the end of time."
So we began to date,
I've tried to be an ideal one,
Never my love will turn to hate,
I ask her to excuse for all that I've done:
"Radio is playing a sad song,
I'm sitting in my armchair,
I realise that I was wrong.
It's only mysery,
I hope you understand me,
I hope you'll excuse me.
Without you days only pass by,
Without a direction,
They bring me no satisfaction.
And now I only wondering why,
Why I was so stupid,
To be rude with such beauty."
I hoped what she'd stay with me,
I ask her not to leave me,
Cause all I wanted when - to be with her,
And I knew what for sure:
"Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone,
Please stay with me, please be with me,
I can't stop this war,
This war inside of me, this war inside of me.
I want to be with you, I want to be near you,
But I don't know if you want to be with me,
It's ordinary words, but I'll die for you,
I cannot live without you, I hope you'll see.
This feeling I can't express in the words,
I can't express it in music, in the guitar chords,
This feeling makes me waste my time,
But I still hope all be fine, I hope this time all be fine."
But our relationship became worse and worse,
I can't decide why? Maybe it's curse?
But hope were still in my heart,
And hope I'll not remain alone in the dark:
"You know my darling, you're the best I've got,
But by avoiding and ignoring, you hurt me a lot.
Leaving my messages without an answer,
You make me feel worse than ever.
Why can't you write my name?
Why can't you write a few words?
You say that your answers will be the same,
But they are so important to me!
I'm not a handsome man, I'm not clever,
And after my life, I'll be burning in hell,
And for me you're a perfect girl, you're the best ever,
You're the one that I care about, for me you're a pure angel!
I don't care about what they say,
I'll not change my position to you,
If you want I'll be with you 'till last day,
Of life of me an you!"
But this my message was last,
Unfortunately, all gone so fast.
And then again I couldn't see
A light, when she said that she never loved me.
Part 5
But looking back I wouldn't change a thing,
Memories will always stay with me,
Not looking at all I wish them happiness and good luck,
I wish them to have in their life more light than dark.
I want to thank them for all of them,
I hope they wish good luck me then,
Cause after all the pain I've got,
I have stronger soul and stronger heart.
Yeah, I always wonder why,
Why I can't be happy now and here,
Then the other day I take a look at the sky,
And say again to nowhere:
"Where are you my darling?
I'm so tired of trying,
I'm so tired of searching
Now, and what about you?
You dreaming about your love,
But life says to you - fuck off!
What are you waiting for?
Can't you see, I can be yours!
Why two people can't be together,
This things, of course, won't last forever,
So what are you waiting for? Why are you waiting for someone?
I'm here, I'm with you! So don't be so alone!
You should stop dreaming about the prince,
These thoughts are more stupid then they seems,
Take a look around, and you will see,
I'm here, I'm with you, What else do you need?"
11.06.08