Emptiness

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I don’t know what to do
Since one day
             But so many hours
What I’ve been through!..
But today
           I’m just counting crowds
Passing me by…
Why you can’t
             hold my hand so softly?
Wish you’re alive
I’d be full, not a half
                Why won’t you?
I restart wearing smile
But your absence
                сan`t be changed or be explained
Heart getting hard
Everytime
             my memories carrry out the pain
Do you know how
I miss your voice,
                your hands,
                your love,
                your everything?
I had no time
And I’m late!
             I just want you to live!

Wish you’re alive!
And excuse all my mistakes and misery
Wish you’re alive!
No one ever can replace you in a thing!
Wish you’re alive!
Just to hug and to say “I love you best!”…
But…
Killing life!
Nothing will be… Just an emptiness!

13 march 2010