Devil or God?

Оксана Долгова Ткаченко
When I closed my eyes - only hell was in front,
But I hadn't the right to express my disgust
I was puzzled and more - I was really stunned
For the Devil I saw was the thing I've seen last,
And I started to pray, ask for peace and for light
And I promised to stop all the lust I had had;
I applied all the force all my power and might
To forget all the scenes that were awful and bad.

When I came to the edge of my thought,
I was sure to die! I was frightened with God
Who stood still with his hand on his heart
As if he was inside me but I was abroad.
Thus I tried to forget all the troubles I had
I was searching for love - it's been hidden from me
So I knelt in my sole, I was weary and sad
As the stranger whom ill will fobbed to come in.