I'm in deepest, darkest ravine,
Painful doubts,
Sorrowful thoughts
Dance their crippled dances
On my pitiful bones.
Destruction.
I sing soulless songs of silence.
Dumbest choices.
Most hateful time of my life.
Why I'm here now?
I wanna sleep.
I wish I have a swarm of dreams
About fire,
About beauty
Of oblivion.
But I'm awake.
And world says me "Shut up, turn out and leave" -
It's answer to my every wish,
To every prayer.
And it's funny.
Rules of my existence.
Blindness.
I'm drowning.
Again and again.
Constant repetition of my "six feet under".
I'm fading away.
I'm melting in shades of rain.
People see me,
Stay next to me,
Surround me.
And somebody begins to dig out
A hole in my heart.
This moment is my punishment
And my ecstasy.
But who cares?
Fragile neck, porcelain hair, ivory eyes...
Sopor of my consciousness.
Welcome to purgatory.