Such a devastating state of mind like a total mess,
When dreams are no more dreams but empty holes,
I always loved you more and never cared less,
But was a puppet in a crowd of porcelain dolls.
My hands are tied behind by thousands of belts,
The colorless disguise hides multicolored smile,
Nagging pain palpitates like drum in every cell,
Getting stronger then abating for a little while.
Such a devastating memory of days gone by,
Of silent promises through solid doors of steel,
I used to fly like restless bird but still I wanna fly,
Your eyes still cast a shower of love thrills.
Devastating but so sweet rewinding it back,
It hurts so much that nobody can even guess,
But pain made me come to my accustomed track,
Made me spin around in my adorable love dance.
I let you go but cried so much behind closed door,
I never smiled again since you are gone away,
My heart is almost whole and only bleeding core
Reminds me that none of us should bear the blame.
But if you dig till bottom of my devastated heart,
You`ll see how feelings tangled deep within,
Still waiting for the knock on door alone in dark,
Anticipating for the odor of southern wind…
- Svetlank@ -