In my own eyes I am lustful, greedy, lazy, angry, jealous, hateful, and filled with pride, mixed with shame, guilt and fear, for what I’ve done, and what was done to me, covered with fake appearance, fake smiles…
In God’s eyes I am a child of God created in His image and likeness…
Should I believe in my own views of me, and continue to bring myself down to the darkness of the bottomless pit, or should I believe God and accept His view of myself and be all that I am in His eyes…
I am not, what I think of myself, I am not what other people think of me, I am His creation and His humble servant…
He chose to place me in the dark place so I can learn how to appreciate the Light and Goodness of God…
The Light of God reveal my true inner self, thru all this so I can really learn what God’s Love is all about…
God’s Love is way above of my level of understanding it, but I can feel it going thru me, it’s that feeling when something is burning inside, to a point that whole body is shaking…
This exact same feeling that drove me to drinkin, now is healing me from inside…
God was always there, thru my drinking days, I just didn’t realize that it was His Love that touches me, been focused too much on my own problems, and stuck in the blame game, trying to unwind the reasons, by digging in the past, what went wrong and where…
But the good thing is, God Love’s us all, and Jesus Christ was crucified for all of us, so there is Hope, to for us all to get to a much better place if we keep our Faith…Sergei Polischouk…Alcoholic