Rules

I just can't agree and I dont wanna agree with these rules of our life...these cruel and nonsensical rules. I will never understand why people tend to make other people hurt, why? Why do you break people's heart if they really love you? Why do you pretend being somebody not in fact being this person? Why? Why? Why? I would love to change it and tell you what a real love is. But people say that it's not right, such love doesnt exist...Nobody will need such love. It's too pure for them. They are not ready to give, they just wanna take, take and take...or may be just share. I dont know how can you be happy being with such people. And I dont wanna become such person. I dont know how to love  in a half. I dont know how to kill feelings if you feel. I dont know how not to admire if you want it. I dont know how to STOP GIVING IF YOU LOVE! And I dont want to know it. I thought that I met such person, but it was again an illusion. That hurts again, but I prefer to be alone than with someone who doesnt SHARE what I feel. I must be too idealistic and might be suffering a lot in my life, but I cant betray my principles, because happiness doesn't exist without these principles  for me  . I will always love from the bottom of my heart. And it's their fault if they don't appreciate it...