Sweet Sadness

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I don't even know if I'm alive,
If each and every moment I take a step
Not towards death but towards life
See what pain is caused by that.

Every day my pain comes undone,
I want to die but God is keeping me here
And now I just want to be sincere
I'm telling you now, believe me, I'm done

Don't try to save me, leave your kind words behind,
I want to go home but there's no way
All I ever wanted to do is to hide
From this consuming unbearable pain.