Your smile

               

Amidst unspoken words that eyes betray
the sweetest foolish torture of my soul -
your smile, that I let possess me whole,-
it’s numbing my ability to pray.

Why cannot I resist when you deploy
this weapon inadvertently and I,
forgetting everything, do let your smiles destroy
my peace but in turmoil can’t deny
these masochistic pleasures that consume
my memory and make my body ache
by filling nights with fantasies of you,
erupting hope and keeping me awake?

How can a fleeting moment of your glance
engulf my mind and powerfully reign
by flooding thoughts that send me to a trance
and causing me to crave for it again,
and, in confusion, almost makes me scream
for more in silent agony, and thirst
for you alone, stirring me to dream
of things not so innocent that burst
inside me – to be reduced to dough
experiencing tension of your hands,
the heat of palms – oh, how I want to know
your touch!

                But when desire expands,
Why does the word ‘impossible’ arise?
No-one to blame - neither God, nor fate.
And what is left to me is to surmise
the reasons for my vulnerable state.

How could my crazy brain misconstrue
from moments so casual and vague
what seems to me believable and true,
pursuing me with mania of plague?

Yet, stifling all - my reveries and sighs,
ashamed by my frankness, lost and torn,
one day I have to see you eyes to eyes -
I have to face reality and scorn.
No matter what this escapade deserves
please don’t be severe and morose:
if my confession does affect your nerves -
I’m only a human with my flaws.

Oh, why with you so recklessly I act? -
myself aware of this simple fact:
the barrier between us is too strong –
our knowledge of right and of wrong.

27-28 September 2010

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