Not a New Year

Indigo
I was crying. But not the tears.
I was drinking. But not the beers.
I was sinking. But not in sea.
I was spilling. But not a tea.
I was losing. But not myself.
I was dusting. But not a shelf.
I was taking. But never stole.
I was selling. But not my soul.
I was having. But not a dream.
On my lips... no, it's not ice-cream.
I was missing. But not my friends.
I have followed. But not the trends.
I've been waiting (and still can't stop)
for Android. With Lollipop.
I was giving. But not the gifts.
I'll get higher. But not in lifts.
I was counting. But not my days.
I was dying. But not today.
I was falling. But not to hell.
I pretended. But not that well.
I was happy. But not for free.
I'll light up. Not the Christmas tree.
I'm not here. And I'm not in there.
I am meeting. But not New Year.