This complicated stride

Серафима Соловьёва
From those first awkward steps of mine
They told me: "Watch your way and mind the one that people take".
They pushed me slightly forward at my back
Straight onto the road with almost not a sign.

There is no map and, certainly, no way on this so vague a route
One can avoid blind alleys or running after all astray.
My pace is slow but yet it's resolute, and I'm going still ahead
To reach the place where man has never set his foot.

It's fear, doubt, from time to time it may be pain
To take a single step and, God forbid, to make all those mistakes
Of which all humans tend to be ashamed.
On this plausible pretext I back away.

I wish I had you now beside once and for all
To be aware that everything I do does really matter.
In case we stumble, fall -
It's easier to stand up when together.

Though flighty, this fragile heart is hardly able to deceive.
And I do wish I'd show you once the Sun:
The one that rises in the East,
The one that sets in furthest parts of western side.

A timid thing, I grope my way and keep on running into forks.
But the further I dare move - with more excitement I get seized,
Which seems to lead me once to pitfalls.
How to escape it? Who will release?