I am praying to be calm inside

I am praying to be calm inside,
I am asking God to be survived.
Time has come - I do not want to run.
Wish to make a stop and enjoy life.

I do not want to paint smile ,
wish to have it for real and for a long time .
I am ready to share my sparkling star
with my family, friends and close ones.

Even if I can't present luxurious gifts,
I will give from my heart all the love that I bear.

I am tired of thoughts  that I am a black cursed bird.

I will fly high above - no more a raven , but a dove.