objects and sources

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i am so sorry that you're hurt
and i'm so sorry for the lies
so sorry for the fact there wasn't much
behind these pretty eyes

i'm sorry for the means
to take revenge on you
i'm sorry for the words
i'm 'bout to put you through

i'm sorry for the love
and all of the attention that you got
sorry for not being right
i'm ill, you are the cold i've caught
i'm sorry without you lonely became the nights

sorry for wanting to get at
you sense of self-esteem
so sorry you have none
sorry that's the way
you've always been
existence with no plan

i'm sorry than despite how much i talk
i never say enough
sorry i was never able to
to break your heart in half

sorry for making it seem like it's over
when in reality i've only just begun
you're not the first yet i still say
i'm sorry
i turned out to be a bigger man

i'm sorry i know you too well
to understand you won't regret
my mother still thinks you are swell
and i'm afraid she won't forget

i'm sorry that with no realization
you're sinking deeper every day
i'm sorry 'bout you lack of aspiration
and how you think it is ok

i'm sorry you're a slave to the false culture
that blends you with the half of country's population of your age
i'm sorry eagle connot love the vulture
i'm sorry i was that naive to believe
that you'll ever change

i'm sorry that you never cared
i'm sorry i was blind to see
i am so sorry i once dared
to let the thought of you and me

sorry for having treated you
the way you don't deserve
sorry for estimating you
above your real worth

i'm sorry i was always the pronoun
a set of breasts but not the name
my love for you will choke and drown
though as for now it stays the same

i'm sorry i stripped down for you
since it feels better with your hand
i'm sorry you're so inconsistent
you never break, you always bend

i'm sorry you're so young and dumb
and know so little of this life
sorry it's the truth - i'm better than
you or any other you will have

i'm sorry that my verbal needles
will never pierce the thickness of your skin
sorry we cannot go back and
after the passed months
i haven't given in

- сентябрь 2017