×ÀÐËÜÇ ÁÓÊÎÂÑÊÈ
"ÁÐÎÑÀÉ ÊÎÑÒÈ"
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"ÈÑÏÛÒÀÉ ÑÓÄÜÁÓ"
åñëè òû õî÷åøü ïîïðîáîâàòü, òî èäè äî
êîíöà.
à èíà÷å íå ñòîèò è íà÷èíàòü.
åñëè òû õî÷åøü ïîïðîáîâàòü, òî èäè äî
êîíöà. ýòî ìîæåò òåáÿ ïðèâåñòè ê óòðàòå ïîäðóæåê,
æåíû, ðîäíûõ, ðàáîòû è,
ìîæåò áûòü, ðàçóìà.
èäè äî êîíöà.
ýòî ìîæåò çíà÷èòü, ÷òî òû íå áóäåøü æðàòü 3 èëè
4 äíÿ.
ýòî ìîæåò çíà÷èòü, ÷òî òû çàì¸ðçíåøü íà
ëàâêå â ïàðêå.
ýòî ìîæåò çíà÷èòü òþðüìó,
ýòî ìîæåò çíà÷èòü ïðåçðåíèå,
èçäåâàòåëüñòâî,
îäèíî÷åñòâî.
îäèíî÷åñòâî - äàð,
âñ¸ îñòàëüíîå - òåñò íà òâîþ
âûíîñëèâîñòü, íà òî,
êàê ñèëüíî òû õî÷åøü
äîáèòüñÿ ýòîãî.
è òû ñäåëàåøü ýòî,
íåñìîòðÿ íà îñóæäåíèå îáùåñòâà è
õðåíîâûå øàíñû
è ýòî áóäåò ëó÷øèì,
íåæåëè ÷òî-òî,
÷òî òû ìîæåøü âîîáðàçèòü.
åñëè òû õî÷åøü ïîïðîáîâàòü, òî
èäè äî êîíöà.
íåò äðóãèõ îùóùåíèé êàê
ýòî.
òû áóäåøü íàåäèíå
ñ áîãàìè
è íî÷è áóäóò ïûëàòü
îãí¸ì.
ñäåëàé æå, ñäåëàé, ñäåëàé,
ñäåëàé ýòî.
äî êîíöà,
äî êîíöà.
òû áóäåøü íà ãðåáíå æèçíè, à âïåðåäè áîæåñòâåííûé
ñìåõ.
òîëüêî òàê èãðà áóäåò ñòîèòü
ñâå÷.
07.03.18
Roll the Dice by Bukowski
if you’re going to try, go all the
way.
otherwise, don’t even start.
if you’re going to try, go all the
way. this could mean losing girlfriends,
wives, relatives, jobs and
maybe your mind.
go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or
4 days.
it could mean freezing on a
park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your
endurance, of
how much you really want to
do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the
worst odds
and it will be better than
anything else
you can imagine.
if you’re going to try,
go all the way.
there is no other feeling like
that.
you will be alone with the
gods
and the nights will flame with
fire.
do it, do it, do it.
do it.
all the way
all the way.
you will ride life straight to
perfect laughter,
it’s the only good fight
there is.