I am rude ,
I don't know the language of Love.
Many years of harshness made my heart like a stone.
How can it be? I cry now
I will beat my cheeks - do not show weakness!
It's no passion, it is no lust ,
it is more than that - it is painful.
If I only wanted simple touch ,
or better - beastly satisfaction.
I am so old,
is it a curse?
I wanted to live peacefully , calmly.
I know it is sinfully - to say that.
am sure - it is a Gift from Heaven.