If I only knew how hard it would be.
how upsetting would be my dreams.
I would have thought dozens of times
before making that very kiss.
I would have tried to be like a stone ,
not to look at his side at all.
He is handsome , he is nice
but it turned out to be so wrong.
I am sleeping with tears ,
I wake up with them.
all my days are torturing me.
If I could I would have torn my heart.
Not to feel constant pain.