I am tired of beeing a good Girl

I am tired of beeing a  good Girl.
I am tired of hiding my nature inside.
Yes, I am addicted , I love alcohol.
It improves my mood , makes me high.

It's not a shame to use strong words.
My own Mother calls me a smith.
I do enjoy to be rude.
am not a lady , so what.

I am a flower , but with thorns.
love to prick,  make pain.
am exhausted showing off.
Just a sinner , no more.