I am not merry , I am not joyful
will not laugh when you tell me a joke
No more a kid , heart was broken
many times and can not be cured.
I will not say lies , it is beyond my dignity
if I despise - my face will betray me
not many friends that surround me
even less who's really trusted.
I am not depressed ,
it used to be true , but is over
am trying to be philosophic.
I start to love cold and winter.
may be one day pain will leave me.