If I had a chance to start all anew

If I had a chance to start all anew.
If I could wake up  completly reborn.
I would smile more often and will loudly laugh
and will not even care how it looks.

I am always gloomy , my mood is down.
despise silly jokes - am so high.
Dream to be considered rather smart.
but do not permit myself live like it goes.

I will not be proud , will bend my head.
Dear God Almighty show me the way.
So I'll  spend my time wisely enough.
and will show my strengh not in vain.