Why don t those tunes wanna talk to me

Why don't those tunes wanna talk to me
Why don't they help me to speak
Wasn't blessed with a special language
The secret of a music freak

They were never meant to be mine
Just teased me and pushed away
But I'm leaving myself to blame
For losing my destined way

I begged, and I prayed, I tried
To catch what was not for me given
I heard how heaven laughed
At my sinking in a bottomless river

God thought I asked for too much
And puzzled my yearning heart
Those gorgeous tunes fooled me day and night
I turned the guitar to my God

But tell me, what was my fault?
Ambitions, being naive or pride?
My passion for a crazy life?
My lust for the creative light?

You closed the door to the world
That charmed  me and conquered my heart
I didn't understand you, my Lord
For me it was not just the art

I looked at that world so close
I dreamt to be a part of it
I prayed but you'd never give me
The talent i really needed

I was so close, I touched it
But never could get inside
Just say, why that life that could never be mine
Was the only thing that felt right

I got lost, I was torn apart
Searching where to hide from my pain
I was not what I wanted to be
Music gift didn't run in my veins

Those tunes that will never be mine
They will never express what I feel
They will never talk to my mind
They will never obey my will

I've been knowing since long time ago
That conflict will change my vision
It'll live in my heart and remind every time
That I'll never be a musician