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Outside my window, I see the river gray
And my scary dreams are so far away
In beige-pink lilacs stand a white ghost
To this world, as I am attached and lost

Only for loved ones I give a false smile
And I stop when they have passed a mile
In my heart again drowned light desire
And my hopes erased by jealous fire

Oh,night I look lonely on a little hills
In me again fell asleep stupid pills
Your notes in my head, I couldn't forget
Desperately scraping my door fluffy pet

On the clouds ran, I don't know what's real
You should know, my dead body no heal
I want to see you and many times speak
Know I won't be upset if I'm too weak