Suicide avalanche

Лейла Лермонтова
My body is shaking, I'm feeling no feelings,
I hope it's okay, but there's daily hope limit
I'm crossing my fingers, but there's no God,
I'm scratching my head tryna find my way out

Dead phone is ringing, but here is no sound,
The voice in my head tells me "back to the ground"
I'm screaming with no any moan, like silent
I hate all my past, it incite me to violence

I'm cutting my skin, and my pain is subsides,
I don't wanna die slip and slide suicide
The darkness is coming, my mind's out of fight
My illness's here, it wanna stay overnight

She's maniacal bitch, but she's crying inside
She's got her own pro how-to-kms guide
She proves that she easily can to go far
And shows me how's beautiful bipolar star.

One moment she builds me conceited person,
Then throws me from skyscraper makes only worsen
She wants bang my head and she's doing it well
The dynamite thread now is burning like hell

I'm tired of this, and I wanna lay down,
With no fucking rings, with nobody around,
With no ugly thoughts, and with no pretty dreams,
I wanna go sleep and wake up feeling bliss

With peace in my head, with beautiful mind,
With coveted everything should have been mine
With kind-signed sunshine, with breath in my lungs
With my own person I love to my luck

There's three on the clock, night is white, I'm in black,
I'm laying on mattress as broke as fuck
I'm strolling through room to the balcon like ghost
Just trying to find who I'm loving the most

My heartbeat is fading, the ill's going deeper
Inside of my bones it can finally sleep off
My eyes get less crazy, my pupilz pinpoints,
I'm falling asleep didn't forget put the coins

The Morpheus's kind, but the Haron is kinder
He transfer my soul to the natural blinder
Just two leads or coppers, there's never was gold
And I swim in the boat to the brave new world

My words were hodgepodge.
I served a chop suey.
My suicide avalanche down behind you