Patch of reflected light

 
Inside me the endless ocean
Has no bottom, no coast, and no lands.
Waters are coming closer
Waters are everywhere...
 
Maybe it's like in Solyaris - 
Mind, but without a soul
Or maybe my wisdom here drowning
And that's why it's heavy load...
 
Waves dances on top of the surface,
But inside they're dense as a stone
It feels like an amber trap
Where I wall up my heart and love..
 
Waters are grimly silent,
There is no sound of waves.
Somewhere in deep just a pain
And I swim and swim there again... 
But who knows what's under it all,
One day I'll break through this cold 
And will dive into something inside. 
That's called inner peace 
Or they do lie
And it's just other layer of brine
In abyss
which pretends to be ocean.
Maybe there's no emotion,
Rumination inside of our mind.
Patch of reflected light.
(15.10.22)