Sleeping alone in my own cold bed
Under my warm blanket
I’m fine and I’m not feeling mad
That we cannot rank it
Swear I won’t play pretend
Being with someone sincere
All dreams all beliefs we had
Just suddenly turned into mystery
Walking alone through the beach at the dusk
Smoking my fifth cigarette
I want to drop my shield and the mask
And start feeling relevant
Swear I won’t push it hard
Despite my own frustration
I’m scared I can lose my guard
In case I find the salvation
January 2023