rudraksha

Наталия Крутилова
It doesn't matter time or past
It doesn't matter cosmos
Its only you and me in eyes of destiny
And i will love you always
And i will think of you
I ll come to you in dreams
My live its time to live
Dont live me be my soul
Be mine be me
Be yours is pleasure its
Red tread of destiny
Which brought got me to this life
Just one on this planet with you
Just see you from far
Just smell your parfume
Just see wind play your hairs
My live dont forget me in past life you left
You was with other man and i
Was crying all night
And i was sad
And i was thinking of you
In next you will be mine
I am here my love
I am alive
But destiny gangs
River mountain storm
Destiny os hard rain with thunders
My love i love you with my heart and soul
But way of path brings me to my
May be gods I made angry
May be Kali didn't not meet Siva in this live
May be cosmos got meteorite
May be its stars of horoscope not match us
It is not me
Its not my hart
I am yours and always in my soul you
My love god worship us
We only humans
May be toy know our life
May be they knows batter
But my heart all in blood
Its doesn't matter how many days
How many years past
I love you forever
And even i dont remember your face
I dont remember your name
My life past by
We was not together
But my love
Even in face of gods
My last second of life
I still remember

My brahm was strong
And raj and all
And family forbidden
My cast was all i know
They rase my soul in poem
I know i am bad wife
I know i am bad mother
Cos i am sad
But all i know my love you left me
I know we must follow our destiny
Our stars will guide us
I know i follow all to have a better next life
But now i am sad and all i tear out my yes till blind
I can not see black luck of stars
I see they torcher me in this life
For past life sinners
It is not me
It s not my soul
Why i am crying
Why i am alone
If my live live
Just near with me
Why can not meet
Why can not rite his name
Rudraksha why you left me
Why never came to me
And why your klan against mine
Why we not friends Rudraksha
Your soul is mine
May be the goddes loves you
May be it is Kali in my eyes you see
May be you hate me as Siva worshiped Kali
Rudraksha come pass by
Let me see your eyelashes
Let me think of us hand to hand live next life
Let me think we never meet next life
Let me die without knowing about your soul
Rudraksha even i didnt know you are there
From little i am always crying
No body knows why
And even doctors dont have love medicine
And even horoscopers dont have unswear
Where are you
Why black lack comes to my life
Why cast i born not chosen
Why i am not free
Why forbidden
To chose destiny
Rudraksha just let me think of you
That in past you killed me
Let me imagine that i was yours
And you as creature jellouse to my new husband
Killed us all and yourself never lived there
Let me think it is torcher for past
Let me think its i am wrong not you
Rudraksha
You best man in world
My soul and my heart all yours Rudraksha

Sunskrit i love you
My eyes blooding to see your beauty
Your lips sweet as berries from heaven
Your body is Dalai Lama sing and dream of
Your hands as white and long nails as snow ash in kilimanjaro
The eyes as colorful and different as pakistani princess
Sunskrit i love you more then cosmos
I want destroy all planats which look at you
But i am Raj of peace
I want to kill you
so no one even me dirt you with
even thoughts to touch your saint white skin
I hate you to make me sinner in thought
I hate love it makes me weak
I hate myself to love women
I hate you Sanskrit

My Raj forgive me
Forgive me my words
I am no linger Sanskrit
Forgive my lie
Forgive my soul
I am Sanctum
Love me my Raj
I will wash off ash of dead from your bear feet
I am no more mortalla i am immortal
My soul belings to Raj
I will destroy for you cosmos
I will put all planets to your bear feet
I will lick your tears off
Dont hate me my Raj of peace

Kali took your soul Sanskrit changed name to Sanctum
She is mad of livshe is crazy
She wants to kill all which look with eyes
Which not head nodded
Which bear feet infront of her Raj of peace

Sanctum you different now
Sanctum I love you more
I am no longer Raj I am Sultam of Universe
We still cant be together
Pleas dont kill you people
Please dont die
Please wait for me Sanctum

My tears are diamant of heaven Raj of Peas Sultan of Univers
You are the only and one true live of my heart
You are not a man of me
I was crazy when was Sanskrit
You are my only son
You are my child
I forgot all
I was sick
I was blind
You are the god of me
You are the only one king of heaven
You my Shank
You my Dharm
You my love
I give you all my soul
All my heart
All my eyes is only you
Only you matters
Only your life even not mine
Only you free
All forbidden to touch
Even think gather your soul
Even dirt your mind
They make me mad
They are anamies
They have craziness
They made me Sanktum
May they wallow in sin, may the black radiating star swallow them up, may the astrologer tell them the fate of another generation of the past era, all those who hated us will die, may the common people of Kali live
May the worship began
Its WAT

sanktum i love you then anything
I love your existence
I love your light
I gave me life
I will be always with you
And day you die i will burn your body and sten in to the fire
To be reborn with you as your lovely husband

My son the Siva took your mind
I have many husbands
In all lives and now
Even more
I dont need another one

Sanktum you dont want me
You dont me
Why you gave birth to me

My son kali took over your mind
I have no more kids
The only you
The only love
The only live
Is now
We must be best to show to gods that we can play with theys love as hard as Shank and Sanktum

Sanktum take my live kill me
Its pain
Its empty body
My soul blooding i love

My son you still young you will have many wifes you will live me more

Sanktum dont live me dont go stay

My son be strong you are the Raj you are the Rudraksha


O my love Rudraksha come to my heart see my son in live with me
But you ignores me with your life
You pass by me and never stop
You never wave or loot to eyes of mine
You live without my word
Without my voice
You never heard my song of love

O my live Sanctum you mad of live to me
But you not give enough courage to your real love
Your son took place of mine
In your heart

O Rudraksha dont hate Shank please give him courage to live
No one in hole entire cosmos loves me as much as you
Even him will live my home to deny his destiny
He will forget me with his wives
He will live long old without my word

O Sanctum where have you been when i was sad alone thinking of you
When i was in the end of gang crying my loneliness out
When my army was concording the universe even you can sleep well in peace
I am scary Raj i have wands  on my heart what will never healed i can not forgive that you live Sanktum
I can not see your eyes without pain
I can not think that people follows your command without scare
I cant sleep thinking someone else sleeps beside you

O Rudraksha all my command on your behave
All my soul i will put to protect your opinion
All i know is to follow you word
To follow your want
You are the truth ruler of Univers Rudraksha
Even no Shank will border you with his wants
Pleas take us as your casta
As your way
As your philosophy
We as you
You as us
Only yours control
Can keep us alive in peace

O Kali you scarier ruler then me
My people are yours
They follow yours command
You told them to follow me as one of your generals
I know who you are Kali
But this knowledge came to me to late

I am still alive Siva
You know where am I
I am all yours
Pleas come and take me
As your wive

No Kali I know you better then you know you
You have as many husbands as stars on sky
You love cost nothing
You love all the same

No Siva I love no one even you
The only one who i ever loved was my son
If even on hair comes off his head
I will destroy whole entire universe

O Kali I know you better
I will come to you in your dreams and follow the path
Of my plan
Agenda is mine
What ever you do
You will never still my soul
To your cosmic purple  Crystal ball

O Siva dont lie to me I know all your wives
And servant
Plenty of them as much as galaxies in cosmos
As many as quantum in atoms
As high as waves in ash

I love you more
Behave Kali
Rest
Relax
You is I
I is you
I is god
You is goddes

We not same
I am a man
I rule here
By your watch

Come to me Siva
I am so lonely on planet
Between people
They do not understands me
Why i have anomy
If i care them all
I am not ruler
I am forbidden to talk

If you forbidden to talk Kali
Think then take your time
If you can not talk Kali
Sing a song of love
If you can not talk Kali
Write a poem
Which will reach enemies heart
You will not die Kali
Tolerate yourself
You are destined to something
To someone
Just think twice before first step

I dont need anyone Siva
I dont want talk
I will write Siva
My love song
I will cry lonely
To the moon light
Please meet me
In next life

I can not take you
To my moon heaven
I can not make you
Hear my song
You my love Kali
We live in different worlds
You will stay alive
This is your path

I follow my casta
My dharm tell me the way
I never border ruler
With my want anymore
If you hate Sanktum kill her
If you hate Sank kill him
Just dont torcher us with you ignorance

O Raj keep our kingdom alive
O Raj protect us from deseas
O Raj we love you so much
All our nation will follow Rudraksha

O my love please live
With knowing that i loved you
In this live more then anything
Pleas live with though that i would kill you
To know if your beauty exist
O my love Sanktum you will never understand me
I will concord all countries
I will kill all your anomies
But pleas dont ask me to meet you
It is more then i can do
I am weak man
If i am with you
I will be dead
Better we live longer
And happy just to know that bought of us still alive
Dont worry Sanktum i know your cast
Dont worry Shank i love your mother
Dont worry dharm i follow your command
I will be never ruled by woman
My heard is hard like stone
And as much as she cry i will never follow her command
Even whole entire cosmos she explode
I will be still yours my god
I only have soul
I only have life
I only have song
Of my past love
The love is nothing
The life is all
Even you bordered
By ash of gang

Nk 27.01.23